The most effective way to destroy people

is to deny and obliterate their own

understanding of their history.

George Orwell

When we are able to anchor ourselves in history, we are able to grow and expand.  With an anchored history we are able to honour new beginnings, sans repeating past errors. In the old country, back in Europe, there is a reverence for old ways, old streets, old stones. There is a persistent knowing that others have walked the same path and even some carvings in the tree trunks to mark another person’s presence.

the path has no end

Reverence for trees, history, and culture drip from every stone laid in Europe.  It is a reverence we do not know, here, in North America.  Our lack of history has us, in 2017, on the cusp of repeating some very destructive periods. It is too easy to say those periods were across an ocean and different from today. Apathy and ignorance are the tools needed to repeat dark days of the past and we all have places of apathy. Apathy and ignorance are what allow our understanding of history to be obliterated.

January 2017 I consciously chose to leave apathy and silence behind, hence I allowed this website to go live.  It is apathy and silence that has allowed so many people to live with the injury of PTSD; 911 workers, soldiers, and civilians alike.  We have a crisis in Syria, resulting in people being dislocated, some of whom find new homes, here, in North America. Our new immigrants come to us with the hope of a better future, they also come with injuries of the mind, from their past.  Our first nations live every day knowing their culture and geography were raped, and methodically culled from the history books.

PTSD is the personal version of these global crises.  If PTSD is understood, then the world will find a softer heart and a smarter way of being.  If what I write here helps two people understand a little bit better I have paid my debt forward. If this continues then maybe the “pay it forward math” will work in our favour.  Maybe we will make a difference, together.

Make no mistake, it was my apathy and my ignorance that cultivated rich fodder for the injury titled PTSD.  If I write some of the lived experience, then maybe there is less room for apathy, and elbow room for empathy.  If PTSD is better understood then what George Orwell wrote will only be a concept, not a reality. I write and humbly ask you read with soft ears and maybe together we could learn something new. Working together we may have compassion when viewing our own history, our own personal choices.


History does repeat, just as the rings of the boardwalk repeat the stones of the walls. What are you going to choose to do, to say, are you repeating your history? Just answer yes and risk looking a bit further. What you find, will liberate.

Namaste my friend,

Julianna Murphy

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